Just reading your meditation posts make me relax, Chris. Thanks again for sharing. I continued my Bible study on peace today. Last week I was studying love. I’m also noticing some nice results with meditation and sobriety. This is the last week of one month without coffee and cannabis. I am experiencing clarity. Thank you for keeping me accountable to meditate, this evening after reading your post I am doing Headspace meditation, and tonight its called a Sleepcast, to create perfect conditions for refreshing sleep. I’m excited because I only slept 6 hours last night and it doesn’t feel totally healthy for me. Oh, never mind the sleep cast is for subscribers so I didn’t listen to the sleepy time sounds, but I thought it was cool how they remind us that a regular sleep time is important for good sleep so I set the notification. I usually keep the temperature at 78 during the day to embrace some warmth, then 76 a bit later to read and work in comfort, then tonight I decided to lower the thermostat to 74 instead of 75. lol. Anyways, I continued the basic meditation session, just for 5 minutes. The app asked me how I was feeling, and I am feeling great after getting a text from an employer, he told me “We have been dreaming about you coming to work with us” and so I booked a flight to go and do my best. I love travel, working in nature, and working with cool people, like brothers. I also changed the mediation guide to a female voice, because that is more relaxing for me. There were some nice reminders before the session about meditation being a skill to be learned. Also, how are brains are always changing, this is so amazing and such a wonderful reminder. I meditated right here in front of my computer, cross legged in my computer chair, leaned back. We began with our eyes open, focusing on our breathing. Then, after some nice focus and rhythms of breathing, we were instructed to slowly close our eyes, and I just slammed mine shut, lol. I’m still practicing. We were instructed to feel the weight our bodies, our arms, our legs, their weight, in the chair, and/or on the floor, and notice the sounds around us. I have a fan going on the far end of the room, I’m sitting in the path of the A/C outflow, and I can hear my other computer behind me gently whirring because I’m leaning back with my head next to it. Then, I was told to not let the sounds dominate my focus, which was easy for me. Focusing on breathing seems to be a primary task. This makes sense because oxygen is so important for our brains and our entire body. It was funny how I really did find my mind wandering to things that are important to me, however the guide gently reminded us that if our minds are wandering, to refocus on our breathing. I had begun to think about my previous Bible studies, my girlfriend… then I got the reminder to focus on breathing. It was blissful. Again, in that moment, I appreciated the process that I am in, the ability to breathe, and I just chose to fully love myself. It feels really amazing. Sometimes my ego can dominate which I try to avoid, and other times I am not really loving myself, which is something I have been working on, because I want to take care of myself and also be able to love others. There was also a sensation of levitation, probably because I slammed this chair on the ground in a moment of anger when I got out of jail a few months ago and realized the police had been lying to me. So, this chair is broken, and the other day I leaned back too far and it fell over, lol. So yeah, maybe I was swiveling on that edge with crossed legs. I also couldn’t help but think when I was meditating, its better when nude. I mean, I usually have to readjust some clothing when I first begin. I think meditation requires this process of getting comfortable. 5 minutes has been a nice beginning, but today it is not enough, or maybe just right for now. I feel like I am in ecstasy, since meditating for 5 minutes and writing this post. This feeling would be nice to prolong, perhaps intensify or transform into something else, and tomorrow I will meditate for 10 minutes. I hope that we are all choosing to be aware of ourselves, truly loving ourselves, and also being aware of our capabilities to transform our mental and physical states. I am learning to appreciate that meditation is a skill to be practiced and learned. I’m excited to continue practicing and learning. This lady says that we don’t have to control our thoughts in meditation, which is an interesting concept, because she also makes suggestions. However, I’m sure there are different types of meditation. The body scanning is particularly difficult for me, like I always go too slow. So, tomorrow I will give it more time. If this is too much, just let me know and I will keep a journal, lol. I think this is cool how we can share our experiences and maybe it will help someone else.